An Attempt To Better Self

All,

I am performing Hajj very soon, in about 3 days. I just want to apologize if there is any mistakes that I have done to you, whether I do it intentionally or unintentionally. All have been forgiven on my side as well :)

Perhaps I should share what my feelings are with regard to this ritual. As a human who tries to practice his religion, I still find it hard to have that True understanding, one where you have full knowledge of what this life is all about. For me it is like an obsession, yet frustrating search which often times failed. It is only hope that keeps me going, that one day, I will find that Truth and be able to share it with others.

This blog is titled Life Journey, perhaps a cliche title for some of you. But it is indeed what I feel my goal is, to try and seek that complete wisdom, where you have full awareness of the mechanics of life. This is one of the reason why performing the ritual of Hajj to Mecca becomes very important and critical as well. I am currently having this thought that I am actually "dying" on my way there, with a hope that I will be reborn, like phoenix coming out of the ashes. It is one ultimate journey, I must say.

Mixed emotions are running through my mind these days. Excitement for being able to do this finally, sad for not being able to go with my wife, and many fears. Fear of being rejected from the invitation, fear of failing to behave myself there, fear of missing the rituals. There are also stupid thoughts such as," Hm...wonder what my colleagues think of my long "vacation" " I don't know at the end whether or not my intention is right anymore, which I think is pretty sad in itself. Despite all these though, I am going!

There are so many things to know, yet this brain of mine is just too small and insipid to learn what I need to learn. Does this bother you guys sometimes? It does to me :)

When Natural Disaster is Actually Man Made Weapon?

I have been doing a lot of reading about Tsunami news lately, until I read an article on whether it is possible to use weather as weapon. To my surprise, there are quite many information (admittedly not sure of its authenticiy) regarding this available on the web. Here are just some of them:

1. http://www.globalresearch.ca/articles/CHO201A.html
2. http://www.popularmechanics.com/science/defense/1281146.html


Just to name a few. Well, I don't know what to make of it, but it would be terrible to even imagine this can actually be done and already operational (the claim is, this is already possible now). Then again, looking at how evil a person can be, I don't have doubts that someone, somewhere is possibly doing this kind of experiment, if not already practice it on poor souls around the world.

Think about it, the power of the earthquake in Aceh was, if I am not mistaken, roughly equal to detonating 1 MILLION of atomic bomb in Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Well, let's just say that this is nothing compared to the fact that in the event of a nuclear war, we will have a Mutually Assured Destruction (MAD) of this earth, twice!


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(laughing super evil at the moment)

Conspiracy Of The World

Whether we like it or not, events that happen in this world are possibly controlled by few powerful minorities. Remember the Asian crisis of 1997? One man was solely pointed out for the cause....George Soros. Until now, I still don't know whether one man like him, of all people, a speculator, can caused such havoc in the whole Asia.

I really wonder if there is such a thing as "evil genius", you know, from what you see in James Bond movies or Austin Power :) One person who can just push buttons to "create" events in our lives. These are the individuals who make us pawns. Man, he/she would be laughing right now maybe, looking at the terrible things he/she has caused.

If you ever see this person, please let me know, I need to learn from him/her, hehehehee. Of course, I will use it for good purpose ;-) (nudge nudge, wink wink)